Okay...so per request, I am updating the xanga....(buddy)...

Now the question: What to tell the xanga-reading world?

Well..............

I'm in love again. This time in an incredibly different way under incredibly different circumstances. Unbelievable, that's what I say. You can know that you're following God when He sets you up for things you absolutely never expected. The journey of following Jesus Christ really is the most unique, amazing thing that we could ever attempt to do as human beings. We're smarter than we think we are, but God is so infinitely better and smarter and wiser and GODLY, that following Him eventually just invades your life to a point where you know no other. 3 years ago, following God was a great thought that I seriously pondered but never really delved into. Now, it's my life all over. God will unbelievably change the surface, texture, and culture of your life if you let Him. It's inevitable.

In the midst of this great love comes a special responsibility that I have. I have to realize that spiritually, there is no contractual agreement by which she and I are bound, therefore, my best efforts can only be that I care for her soul and protect her and love her while realizing that it may end again someday. For all I know, I'm dating another man's future wife. When God looks at a husband and his wife, he sees them as man and wife. Two souls spiritually, contractually bound together by marriage. But outside of this union, when God looks at me and her or me and any girl, I am His son and she is His daughter. That is it. That means that given she and I have the same father, that indicates that we are brother and sister. So what does that mean? Yep, that when I kiss her goodnight, I'm kissing my sister!! Haha, nah, but I say that to say that the best I can do is trust God and trust her and believe in what is to be based on what God wants.

Trust is so key. A lot of people are afraid to trust because trust isn't backed by a guarantee. It is simply hoping and believing and loving unconditionally. That is what God is asking us to do. How can she trust me later when I say I want to go to "X" place and do "X" ministry if we get married, and yet when we dated I couldn't trust her early on. Folks, you must remain true to your heart. Living in fear that it will be broken or simply that you will somehow be let down won't move you an inch closer to where you want to be....

I know this likely sounds scattered, but I think God is showing us something as a whole group of people, and in many of your lives, you're experiencing empty love and frustration when God is calling us to something so much bigger. Put aside all the filler and simply listen to God's word when He says: "I want you to be holy, because I am holy." Not because it will help you in your life or your relationships or your school stuff or anything else. IT'S NOT ABOUT US. It's God asking us to be like Him. This token extends to the relationship that I'm currently in. Yes, love her. Yes, enjoy it. Yes, keep me first. But in that midst and with all of that aside: BE HOLY, BECAUSE I AM HOLY.

No matter what, no matter who, no matter where or why, hear God when He says:

BE HOLY....Because I AM. PERIOD.

Until later....